breaking point

We are officially done with our P3 fall semester! We had our finals week the week before Thanksgiving Break and then we had to come back to take our OSCEs (clinical exam) today. Towards the end of the semester, I hit a point (a dangerous point) where i didn't care what my grades were, I didn't care to study, I didn't want to do anything (see how that can be dangerous?!). I was so burnt out on everything school related that I was emotionally done come finals time. Our semester is split into 2 "Phases". Phase 1 ended mid-semester and we had finals then. I did really well in Phase I. I ended the phase with an 89.2 and no they did not round me up at all. That is a whole other story. When Phase II started, I did not do too well. I did worse on my quizzes, I did more work throughout the week, and I didn't really understand a lot of the more detailed topics. Working like a dog in Phase I to still get a B and feeling defeated because, despite studying, I was doing worse only made me even less motivated. I took my finals after barely studying and then had to work Friday night until 11pm after staying up all night Thursday night studying to take a 3-hour final. Needless to say, I was on the verge of a complete breakdown. I might have been borderline depressed (after studying I think I met the criteria). I slept for long periods and still woke up tired. I barely talked to anyone. I literally needed a break or I was going to go insane.

And then Thanksgiving break came.

The past week was exactly what I needed to be normal again. Slowly but surely I was getting back to being myself. I got to see my entire family. I got to go back to my old high school where I first met Joshua to watch my brother play basketball. I got to sit and laugh with my friends for hours. I got to go black friday shopping. I got to hang out with my parents. I didn't see anyone that I didn't want to. It. Was. Incredible. It was exactly what I need

I came back, took my OSCE, and now I am officially on Christmas Break! Hallelujah! Now I keep spending all of my money on christmas presents. This is going to be the best 6 weeks ever!

Day 9-11

Day 11: Today I am thankful for all of the veterans. At our football game yesterday they had all of the veterans stand and I got a little emotional. It is incredibly awesome what those men and women put on the line so that I can have freedom. Sometimes we forget exactly how great of a sacrifice that so many people have offered up for our country. They defend what I take for granted. I will forever be thankful for them.

Day 10: I am thankful that Alabama lost. Sorry to all of my Bama friends but I am glad someone finally knocked you off your high horse. I know Auburn is really terrible and we will more than likely still lose to Alabama this year (reason #1 that I sold my tickets) but I find a tad bit of joy for this football season in the fact that I do not have to hear any National Championship junk from some people for just a little bit. No doubt Bama is insanely good but hearing Jordan Hare Stadium erupt when they showed the final score of the Bama Texas A&M game up on the scoreboard might be just a little bit better :)

Day 9: I am thankful that Joshua records Duck Dynasty and re-watches them with me every Friday night because I do not have time to watch them on Wednesday. It is one of the funniest shows I know of. It is good, clean, family fun.

Day 8

Today I am thankful that one week from right now I will be studying for the last night until January. One more week of this semester to go!

Day 7

Today I am thankful than I am a part of an incredible company like
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catching up

I have been saying what I am thankful for on Facebook but I am going to do it on here too! so I will catch up now and keep up after this.

Day 1: I am thankful that I got my journal club over with today so that I can have a version of senioritis next semester!
We have to do these presentations all the time starting now that are called Journal Clubs. Basically you just have to review a study that was done. I will spare you the details but it isn't a fun thing to do. We have to only do one for one of our classes and I volunteered to do mine last week so that I do not have to do it next semester. Since that is our last semester of classes, having one less thing I have to focus on will be nice!

Day 2: I am thankful that I got the opportunity to know Summer Kempfer. She has poured so much into my life over the past 7 years. I am forever changed by that relationship. She was an incredible example of Christ's love and she is greatly missed. (see previous blog)

Day 3: I'm thankful that I have a job that lets me work enough to make some money but not too much that I lose my mind. I'm thankful that I work with really great people too.
I had to work Friday 5-11pm and Saturday and Sunday 8:30am-6:30pm. Needless to say, if I hated my job I would have had a HORRIBLE weekend. I love my job. The people I work with are awesome. I feel like it has really spoiled me and when I get out and I am a pharmacist I will have high expectations. 

Day 4: I am thankful that I got to sleep in Monday morning because I had afternoon IP (after working all weekend and staying up to do homework this was a huge blessing)

Day 5: I am thankful for coke. It is delicious and refreshing. Enough said.

Day 6: Today I am thankful that no matter who wins the election that Christ is still working all things for good.

...and I am going to write Joshua in for Sheriff :)

Summer Sunshine

When I first moved to Auburn, I was searching for a church home. When Church of the Highlands opened in February of my freshman year, I knew I had found one. The first person that I met was Summer Kempfer. She was the children's director and I got involved in the nursery. She became a friend and eventually became a spiritual mentor to me. We would meet every week and she would pour into me and pray for me. I grew so much closer to the Lord because of my relationship with her.I babysat her kiddos, spent time with their family, and knew she would be an important person in my life forever.


Last December, she was diagnosed with Stage 3 cervical cancer. Heartbreaking. It was a long, tiring battle going through chemo and all that goes along with it. But in the midst of it all, Summer never took her focus off of the Lord. She lived by the phrase "I Win!" Whether that be that she defeated cancer and got to be with her family or whether the Lord took her home and she got to be with Him forever. Either way, she wins. You can visit her CaringBridge to read more of her journey. 

Last Saturday night, Summer lost her battle with cancer. She got to go home to worship at the feet of Jesus. Tuesday, we had a service to celebrate her life. And that is exactly how it should be. She is HEALED! She is with Jesus forever! Of course we miss her here and we would rather have her with us but she wouldn't trade this life for eternity. Not for one second. At the service there was a letter that Summer wrote and this is a part of it.

"The most exciting part about having cancer is that it has given me a platform from which to speak. See, it's not about me having cancer, and honestly its not really about ME at all. Having a relationship with Jesus has changed my life. His love for me has changed my life. And it is my purpose in life to share that with others, so others can be pulled out of the darkness which saturates this world and into His marvelous light, where there is freedom and hope and love."- Summer Kempfer.

Summer Sunshine Kempfer touched my life and the lives of so many others. She will never be forgotten. She definitely leaves one heck of a legacy!

Please continue to pray for her husband, Jeremy, and their 4 kids Taylor (12), Savannah (9), Jaylen (5), and Sarah Kate (1).