weighing heavy

This post is going to be a little raw so if you aren't in the mood for that then stop reading.

There is something that has been weighing heavy on my heart. This weekend 3 people that I know are getting married and I wasn't invited to a single one of their weddings. This isn't the first time that I haven't been invited to a wedding and I am sure it won't be the last. But it has just been hitting me really hard lately that I am not friends with hardly anyone that I was really good friends with about a year or two ago. I have had people come to me with girl problems and then not invite me to their wedding to that same girl. There was even a reunion for people who went on the Brazil trip the past 2 years and I didn't hear about it until it was over. That one was particularly disappointing. I know I have been really busy with school because school is hard. However, I still have a social life and hang out with people. Ever since I stopped helping with switch because school became more demanding, the people I was the closest to have pretty much stopped talking to me. Some people don't even know that I am in pharmacy school. There are a handful of people who will talk to me when they see me or reply to something on twitter but for the most part I have a completely different set of friends than I did before. Now I have friends in pharmacy school, my roommates, my best friends from home but sometimes those friendships get a little lonely. One time last semester, a girl in my class asked me if I was going to sips-n-strokes with the pharmacy girls. I hadn't heard about it so I didn't think it was a huge group of people but then the next day I realized that pretty much every girl in our class went besides me and my roommate. We never even got invited. I don't drink or party or any of that so its difficult to make friends with some of my classmates when that is how they socialize. There are some great girls don't get me wrong. I am going to try to start going to the bible study but we have had meetings every week at the same time so I haven't been yet. My best friends from home are THE BEST but they aren't here in Auburn. I wish they were still down the street like in high school but now they're all at least 2 hours (and a phone call) away.

The whole 3 weddings just happened to be the tip of the iceberg but this is something that has bothered me for a while. It is just hurtful to have someone that you know through other friends invite you to their wedding and yet your own friends don't even invite you to game night. The sermon on Sunday about Jesus being our best friend was so perfect for me. I am so glad I have a friend like Jesus that will always be there for me no matter how busy I get. He doesn't care that I am not leading switch, or that I am not in 2:52, or that I am not a party girl. He thinks I am the coolest person in the world and He will always want to hang out with me. He won't ever forget to invite me. He won't ever think I am unimportant. Everyone in the world will disappoint me but Christ never will and there is so so much peace in that.