cry me a river

Since I came to college I have become more and more like my mother everyday. Especially when it comes to emotions. Me, my dad and the brothers used to laugh at mom during sad parts in movies. She would be trying so hard to hold back the tears and then she would say "I can't help it that God made me so emotional." Now I am the same way. I cry at anything. A good movie, a good book, a wedding, a sweet song, a rough time, and even sometimes just for the sake of a good cry. "Every woman is wrong until she cries, and then she is right - instantly." --Sam Slick. God made women as emotional creatures. I am eternally grateful for that now. Someone--I have no idea who--once said "sometimes tears are the only words you have left." God knows every feeling, every thought, and every word you are trying to say when the tears start to fall. You don't have to try to figure out how to put into words what you're feeling. He already knows. God allows things to happen (especially when you pray for them to) so that he can work it all for good. In romans 8:28 it says "and we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." He uses everything to teach, rebuke, correct, and train us. It also brings us even closer to him. I know in my own life, every time something doesn't go my way or I felt something was supposed to be one way and it ended up another, I learn more and more to be obedient to my Savior. His will is perfect and I am not. I am stubborn and think at times that I can do it better alone. Then I get my world rocked and it shows me that God is in control and he knows what he's doing. I used to have the mentality of -put on your big girl panties and deal with it- but now I know without a doubt that I don't have to. God is already doing it. In and through me. I don't know about every other woman but I love my Jesus more with each tear that drops because I have one ounce less of something that God needed to get out. "Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts." --Charles Dickens, Great Expectations, 1860.