music monday +

The past week or so both me and Josh have been working like crazy. Making money is our goal at the moment. On the 11th, I am going home to see Ash and Jared. We are having a cookout to celebrate them being home for a bit. Once I go home, I won't go back to work for 4 whole weeks! I am going to stay at home for a few days then me and Josh are heading back to Arizona with my family for a little vacation. When we get back, we have 2 weeks of rotations which is literally working 80 hours in 2 weeks for free. Since we won't be making any dollars for a month, we are trying to make as much as we can now. I have a few days off for right now so I have made myself a few "to-do" lists. I am a list maker. It keeps me sane. If I don't write it down, I will more than likely forget it so hopefully I have written everything down.

I have now come to accept the fact that Lola Cat Blackshear is gone. 3 weeks ago, my roommate left her outside on purpose because she was mad at us. Lola never came back. I have checked the humane society every weekend, I have called for her, I have left food, I have even stuck Oscar outside to meow for her but she just hasn't come home. When I found my other cat, Bella, dead on the side of the road I told my mom that I wish I wouldn't have found her. I wish I could have kept thinking she was out there, or had a new home, or something better than dead. Now that I have experienced this, I am glad I found Bella. I still wonder where Lola is so I don't think I have really let myself be super sad and then move on. Josh sent me a picture of her the other night and I cried for the first time about it. It just makes me so so angry that Saige put her out. I am trying to just live peacefully with her until she moves out but all I want to do is just sock her right in the mouth. I have had to pray for the Lord to zip my lips and control my anger. I am going to the humane society to look for her for the last time tomorrow. If she isn't there then I am giving up. I really miss her.

And since it is monday.....

Brett Dennen is one of my new favorite artists. Josh discovered him thanks to Pandora. I like almost all of his songs that I have heard so far. His new album "Loverboy" just came out. Go get it here!!